The Slowness of Change: Expectations vs. Reality of Making Adjustments

Whoa! This white-space thing is hard!

Right now I’m in this ugly phase where I know I want things to change, yet I’m stuck in autopilot doing the same things as before.

I had this idea that as soon as I started this project, I’d immediately be whisked away to some ethereal realm of creativity and begin exploring the depths of what I’m capable of as an artist—as a creative.

Ha! That certainly has not been the case.

I’ve not been carried off anywhere.

In fact, as I write this, I’m staring at the painting of a Siamese cat I’m working on for a customer while listening to the load of white sheets swash in the laundry room. The barn animals are waiting to be fed as my own stomach growls, and all I’m really hungry for is change. Yet all that’s before me is the same.

Same. Same. Same.

Patience. That’s what I need. I think I’m expecting a sudden grandiose shift, when in reality, a solid change comes about slowly.

S L O O O O O O O W L Y

Reminder to self: September is the date I’ve always said I’d be in full creative swing.

• I won’t rush it into being sooner.

• I’ll wrap up current commitments.

• I’ll tie up loose ends.

• And I’ll learn to be in the moment now so I can be fully present to what lies ahead when it arrives.

Big sigh. I can do this.

Sharon